Well it’s officially 2022 and I’ve beeen writing this for nearly 6 months. I haven’t found the head space to finish it. I’ve nothing remotely positive to say about 2021 – sorry! The last year was a complete pancake. At the end of the year, 30th November to be specific the most scariest day of… Continue reading Brain Bleed
I was so looking forward to Christmas in the Appleby household this year. Ava being three and so much more advanced than she was last year I was hoping she would enjoy and grasp the concept… Oh how wrong I was. She knew things were going on, but nothing could prepare me for the morning… Continue reading That Time Of Year Again
I haven’t done a blog post in a while, I update my Facebook page regularly but that mainly focuses on the golden girl herself, where as this space is mine to tell all about my life and my little family. — if you ever want to check out my fb page it’s @avaappleby2014 😉 So… Continue reading New Start
sit thinking alot about how my life has taken a complete 360 since 2013. I love how Facebook has this amazing way to transport you back in time and remind you just how much you’ve let yourself go… Alot. How you’ve given up trying to make yourself look good or even caring . I used… Continue reading Beautiful Chaos
When you were born and we learnt of your condition(s) I lost all hope. Any dreams and aspirations that I had been playing out in my mind for the last 9 months had gone. I didn’t believe that any of that was possible, I fully and whole hearted believed you would be better off if… Continue reading To My Daughter…
This morning; I woke up as usual, the same way I always am with my one year old son screaming for his milk and my 2 year old coughing away choking on her salvia. I dragged myself out of bed with my heavy ever growing baby bump, gave Steven his milk to buy me some… Continue reading Sleep Deprived Parents
I shared a beautifully written poem today on social media. It is so simple but so poignant, it was short, but so eloquently written. It summed up in a few verses life with Ava and how people portray her. I’ve learnt a lot about myself and people since I have had my daughter. I’ve learnt… Continue reading Different
Every now and then I find myself looking through Ava’s memory box and I have a good cry. I always rummage through and reflect back on the moment in time she first wore her teeny tiny sleepsuit, she was 2 weeks old and she had worn nothing but a nappy since the day she was… Continue reading Memory Box
Someone once asked me, “how do you cope knowing your child is deaf and will never hear you?” To be honest at the time the thought never entered my head as something that I wouldn’t or shouldn’t be able to cope with. We never expected Ava to have medical issues, least of all to be… Continue reading Silence
To the parents that lost their shit today. because the nurses and doctors put my child first and not yours, I’m sorry. Actually I’m not sorry, because do you know what? I’ve endured 3 months in this hospital with my daughter fighting for her life, endless, tests, blood transfusions and operations and you are here… Continue reading My Daughter comes before your son.
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