Do you know what. Fuck it. If I can get this out there to save someone, to break the stigma then I’m willing to bare my soul. I will sacrifice my privacy, my deepest most personal thoughts to try and save myself. Two months ago I reached a crisis point, I sat in my lounge… Continue reading Suicide.
So many people time and time again question how I do it? Do what? Be a parent, a mum? I just do, just like every other mum I know. The days you don’t hear from me, the days I lay low are the days I admit to myself that it’s overwhelming, that I need time… Continue reading Carer vs Mother
Easter! 🐰🐣 Well, Easter is another time of year we can’t just celebrate and give milky bar eggs to all the children. It may seem stupid, but it hurts. It is heartbreaking to watch Ralph and Steven get excited about the Easter bunny, chocolate and all the little things children enjoy. Of course we don’t… Continue reading Easter
I’m not ashamed or afraid to hide behind mental health. If you have read my blog I’ve shared some dark times. When I was pregnant with Jasper, the decision was made to keep me on the highest dose of mood stabiliser. The pros outweighed the cons, with little risk to a baby in utero, a… Continue reading Dejavu part 2.
A week ago we welcomed our fourth child in to the world, it’s hard to imagine that when I started this blog it was initially only about my family with two children but now year after year we welcome new additions, this however, will be the last! So we welcome baby Jasper; a very healthy… Continue reading Dejavu Part 1.
I was so looking forward to Christmas in the Appleby household this year. Ava being three and so much more advanced than she was last year I was hoping she would enjoy and grasp the concept… Oh how wrong I was. She knew things were going on, but nothing could prepare me for the morning… Continue reading That Time Of Year Again
It has always been a childhood dream of mine (pretty sure it’s all kids dreams!) To visit Disneyland. We were extremely fortunate to be given an all expenses paid holiday for the whole family. Ava visits a hospice called Little Havens and they offer respite for the whole family, they allow her to be a… Continue reading Disneyland
Something I always feel really bad about is that when you have a medically fragile child, if you have other children that are seemingly “healthy” their illnesses are never really that bad. I often find myself saying “oh it’s just a cold”, “just a little virus”… But this week I felt really guilty. My youngest… Continue reading Poorly Ralph
I haven’t done a blog post in a while, I update my Facebook page regularly but that mainly focuses on the golden girl herself, where as this space is mine to tell all about my life and my little family. — if you ever want to check out my fb page it’s @avaappleby2014 😉 So… Continue reading New Start
sit thinking alot about how my life has taken a complete 360 since 2013. I love how Facebook has this amazing way to transport you back in time and remind you just how much you’ve let yourself go… Alot. How you’ve given up trying to make yourself look good or even caring . I used… Continue reading Beautiful Chaos